I have found a new fire in my training, or more precisely I have a clearer picture of where I am going and how to get there. Its time to raise the bar, train harder than ever before, and tear it the fuck up.
I have spent too much time being superior in an inferior realm, what a friend calls being a gold medalist in the Special Olympics. I rose a little bit above that when I started obstacle racing. I can best describe where my goals have been this past year as being mediocre in a mediocre realm.
I have seen what people who train harder than I do are capable of, and it is absolutely beyond the realm I have been living in lately. It is time I step up and struggle to be adequate in a superior realm. I have let go of some of my notions of what I cannot do, and done several of them in my workouts since GORUCK last week.
I find it a little amusing and absolutely fitting that I have had this revelation just as we are entering the year of the snake in the Chinese calendar. Like a snake shedding its old skin so it can grow, I am shedding my old limitations so I can develop.